Mopey

Mopey? Yes that is how I am feeling tonight. It doesn't help that it is 12:45 at night and I am super tired. And yes people have a lot more to worry about than I do,but I am feeling a little whiny today. First of all I was looking in the mirror the other day and say something that look like a gray hair! What? On closer examination I realized it was a gray hair! And I actually found about then of them. I am so not ready to have gray hair. The being over 30 thing has never bothered me but this gray hair thing sure has.

I am so looking forward to Christmas break. I have never wanted a vacation so badly in my life. Needing money for Christmas this year I started making crochet stuff and selling them to people. It has worked way better than I had ever imagined. So far I think I have sold and made 23 hats, 1 scarf, 1 baby blanket, and one baby in a blanket! And I still have four more hats to make that have been ordered. This plus working 30 hours a week is killing me. The other night I was redoing a hat that wasn't turning out right when I started crying and asking myself what the heck I was doing trying to crochet all these stupid hats. When I figure out the money I made compared to the time I am barely making minimum wage. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful to all the people who have ordered things from me. I have been able to earn enough money to buy us a meager Christmas this year but I am just tired. I am ready for things to slow down a bit. Plus I think I need just to raise my prices. I always feel badly doing that but I need to get over it because I know my prices are a lot cheaper than anyone else. I guess I am just frustrated with the whole financial, work thing right now. O well I guess I will try to go to sleep now and maybe I will feel better tomorrow.